A few weeks past I was looking after a friend’s daughter for a bit and she wanted to watch Glee. The TV show that ran from 2009 – 2015. My own daughter had also started watching it recently and because I love my music, I thought I would give it a go.
I was always the girl who listened to music as a way to express my feelings, and I have just realised this week that I still do this. I think for a long time I didn’t listen to music because I was avoiding my emotions. I was numb and I avoided feeling anything because it was too difficult. Music brings out all of my emotions. I love music in the background to help relax me. I love dancing to pop music, and I have been known to cry when a song comes on that reminds me of the past.
I don’t know how many people can relate to this.
Watching Glee with my daughter has brought out so many emotions and I haven’t been 100% sure how to deal with them all. Are they just normal emotions or are they something more? Whatever they are I am going to explore them. You see I have no idea what I haven’t dealt with. I have in the past been excellent at denial and compartmentalising so now I’m not sure what’s still hidden, if anything.
I think I’m now relatively well put together mentally, but I know there is always work to do, just how much I guess I will find out.